Cold...

So here's the thing...i've come to realise lately that to other people (those that i don't know very well or i don't even know at all) may think of me as cold and that i think too good of myself...man...i've been a little bit paranoid after this thought suddenly popped into my mind one day after work...i've noticed this at work mainly because i appear so antisocial...i mean, people ask me crap about myself and i reply their questions in like one sentence...or maybe even less than that...seriously i have like a problem or something...for one, i can't strike up a conversation with people i'm not close with...the other thing is even if they ask me something i tend to give the crappiest answer...i'm actually quite shy...i think that the reason i appear cold is because of my shyness...i mean, to those who are close to me i talk like there's no tomorrow but when i meet new people i tend to shut up...and i guess that my shyness somehow reflects into other's eyes as i'm stuckup...i know that nowadays people (girls quite frequently) seem to judge others really easily...i know i do that...but then again...i prove myself wrong sometimes when i finally get a chance to talk to that person and find out that they nothing like i thought they were...i guess people are judged by their appearance mainly and also the way they hold themselves...man...i dont get it...i really do have some sort of social problem...i think thats the main reason why things fall apart for me...

Prodigy...

I was on YouTube recently and i came across a video with a 6 year old music prodigy...watching her fingers glide up and down the keys made me wish i was born a prodigy...that actually would be really awesome...well despite the probability that i might have no friends at school *laughs*...i wonder what makes these kids different to the rest of us 'normal civilians'...is it because they have more brain cells? OMG...or is it because they have an extra CHROMOSOME? bahahaha that would make them an ALIEN or something...well got to be off before the ma comes in and tells me to get off...ciao...

Apparently...

Well...according to some 'experts' (aka my BROTHER) blogging relieves stress...i'm not sure if this is true but since i'm expecting upcoming stress from my last year of my highschool education, i think i should may as well attempt to make a blog...it's to 'relieve stress' as well as accept/reject my brother's hypothesis...